I think futile is an ugly word. One of utter desperation, and pure discrimination. It means that no matter what you do or how hard you try, you will fail. But as childish as it may seem, i think there's a chance at absolutely everything. So I only used the word "futile", when sarcastically mocking English poets of the 1800s. Lately, however, I started a project, where i wanted to learn as much about a certain subject as a friend, who had been studying this for 10 years. i wanted to learn it all in months. Not to mention he was STILL learning, and I'm starting to realize, that "futile", as harsh a word that is... Has officially come into my life with a strong meaning. Now, i still hate the word, for it is, in fact, a hideous word.